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How Outrageous!

“I’m shattered. Mum has left me… the bestest part of my life. She’s my mum and my wife…..but I’ve found that my tears won’t bring her back… Just one prayer….. HEAL MY MUM. My only consolation is that she made heaven… a part of me has left…” These were the exact words of my friend who lost his Mum to the cold hands of death on the morning of 1st January, 2017 as we were celebrating the New Year. I’m still trying to get over the shock of it. Once I saw the above message from my friend, I broke down. I remembered how I felt as a 16year old, when I lost my elder brother to a fatal illness, two days to the start of my Senior High School Certificate Examination. I could feel his pain. I hated God at that time for taking my brother away from me. For not healing him. I never shed a tear. I became angry instead. I looked upon each new day with disdain. 

It took a while but I eventually resigned to the reality that my brother is no more.

Sometimes, the rug can be swiftly pulled off from under our feet and we’re left with nothing to stand on. 
We find ourselves at the bottom of the pit with a barrage of unanswered questions to both God and man, just like my friend.

You ask yourself if God really exists and you wonder, ‘why you? You open your Bible and you see the words, ‘rejoice’ and ‘trials’ in the same verse. How outrageous! 

It’s enough one has to go through the trials and the Bible is still talking about Joy. Unfortunately, there’s nothing soothing you can tell someone who’s lost a loved one to the cold hands of death. But in the midst of the tears, I can only say, God sees and knows exactly what you’re going through. He can feel your pain. He knows all about your struggles. I usually tell people who are going through such shattering times to cry and vent all emotions and then pick themselves up again and find Joy in God. 

It might come across as being insensitive, telling someone in that state of mind, to find joy in God when they have a lot of unanswered questions. During the time I mourned the death of my brother, one of the scenarios that helped me to pull through was the scenario of Jesus weeping when he heard that His friend Lazarus was dead. I immediately remembered Hebrews 4 vs 15-16: 

We don’t have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He’s been through weakness and testing, experienced it all… So let’s walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help. (MSG)

So He really does know how it feels to lose a loved one? So He could cry? 

When you’re shattered and feel that God has left you, that is the time He calls out to you to comfort you. In the midst of the questions and hurt, cry to God and rest assured in His comfort.

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You don’t know how it feels.

Sometimes we think God doesn’t understand. We think He doesn’t know how it feels to stay up throughout the night, unable to sleep. Or how it feels to be financially unstable and with all the bills, loans and mortgages. Or how it feels to wake up to another day filled with its own troubles. 

Or how it feels to be brokenhearted. Or how it feels to want to choke that person getting under your skin. Or how it feels to feel depressed, overburdened, looked down on.

Hebrews 4vs14-16 tells us otherwise. It tells us that Jesus knows and has experienced it all. Some feel God doesn’t understand and so they keep away. Well, Hebrews 4vs16 lets us know that instead o running away from Him, we should run TO HIM because HE KNOWS. 

It isn’t too late, no matter how far away you’ve run from Him. He will gladly receive, comfort, and help you. Only trust Him. He knows and is always here to help.

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Happy New Year

So I’m counting down a few hours to New Year’s Day. At this point, I’ve decided to just thank God. He’s brought me a long way from the 1st of January, 2016 till today. It’s been an adventurous year. It’s been full of ups and downs, it’s also been full of breakthroughs.

I’ve seen myself at my lowest point. I’ve seen myself depressed. I saw myself rise above the depression. I saw myself become a strong lady. I saw my parents proud of the woman I’ve become despite my pitfalls and ups and downs.

Everyday I grow with the experience I’ve gathered. I’m not perfect, but today I’m not where I used to be. 

It’s been an awesome year. 

To my friends, for staying by me and reaching out to me at my point of need – I appreciate you.

To my family, for being there and fighting for me and believing in me – Thank you. You’re the best.

To my blog followers and those always reading and encouraging me – You Rock. Thanks.

The euphoria of Christmas is gone and a new year is dawning. It may not always be smooth and in those times, always remember:

But now, God ’s Message,… “Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you. I’ve called your name. You’re mine. When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you. When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place, it won’t be a dead end— Because I am God , your personal God, The Holy of Israel, your Savior. I paid a huge price for you… That’s how much you mean to me! That’s how much I love you! I’d sell off the whole world to get you back, trade the creation just for you. (Isaiah 43:1‭-‬4 MSG)

Let us usher in the new year with joy, gladness and love. Spread the Love.

Happy new year!

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The Carpenter’s Prayer

​It’s Christmas Eve and I’m so excited. But in the spirit of Christmas, I remember one man – not Jesus. One man we often don’t talk about, who had a large role to play in God’s Grand Plan. I call him Uncle Joe. You know him as Joseph, the carpenter. I wonder what ever happened to him because he is rarely mentioned in the story of the life of his son. I wonder how he must have felt on that night. The night in the manger. The night Jesus was born. I can imagine him pacing outside the manger, agitatedly. Looking at the night sky of Bethlehem, and praying:

“My Lord, this isn’t the plan. I thought the Son of God would enter the world in a better condition, not this. I envisioned midwives all around my wife, anything she needs at her beck and call. The best of care. Trumpets blaring. Priests around. People to thump my back and say, ‘Congratulations Man, you’re a Father.’ But here we are, in a manger with the animals and the darkness of the night sky for comfort. 

This wasn’t the plan. I’m a carpenter. I like to know the plan before I begin. I take measurements. I chisel things off wood. I nail things into place. I make things fit, with a grand design in mind. I didn’t plan for my son… I mean, Your Son, to come into the world this way.

Did I miss it somewhere? I obeyed the angel and kept Mary. I answered questions about the pregnancy. Forgive me, if at this point I’m fretting but you understand.

I’m sorry. I just remembered. The plan is Yours, not mine. I’m just a nail, a hammer, a chisel in Your hand. It’s not quite easy for me but I’ll obey. I’ll stay. You probably have a grand design in mind. I guess its foolish for me to question You. Trust doesn’t come easy for me. But You never said it would be easy did You? I surrender to Your plan. I trust You.” 

I don’t know if he prayed such a prayer. He might have. He might have not. But I have. You probably have. I’ve stood where Joseph stood many times. You too. Caught between what God says and what makes sense. Many atimes not making sense of one Word He says. 

Things didn’t turn out the way you thought it would. You’ve asked yourself if you’re still on the right path. You’ve mapped out your own plan believing it to be the right plan. We all know to a degree, what it’s like to search the night sky for light. Not outside a manger but probably outside an emergency room, at your loved one’s sick or death bed, in your car, by the roadside, on your bed, in your office, in the shower, sometimes in tears. 

Joseph obeyed. So, I urge you to. He obeyed and had the opportunity to witness the birth of Christ, our Saviour. He had the opportunity to witness what we now celebrate today as Christmas. I can imagine in the midst of that prayer, outside the manger, Uncle Joe hears the first cry of the Baby. Imagine the joy that would flood his heart, his worries disappearing in a second. He rushes in to behold our saviour as a baby (who probably has an overdose of cuteness ;)). The sight of the baby Jesus bringing hope. 
He didn’t let his confusion and doubt get in the way of His obedience. He obeyed when the Angel appeared to him. He obeyed when Mary explained to him that the pregnancy wasn’t of man. He obeyed when the sky was dark and there was no place for comfort except the manger. He obeyed because that’s what God told him to do.

God works in the lower order with His higher order in place. And it can be really exhausting not knowing what next to do, but in the midst of that confusion and doubt, it’s okay to ask God for comfort. It’s okay to pray Joseph’s prayer. Even in this Christmas season, in the midst of the happiness and celebration, let us remember one man’s obedience to God. Let us remember the grand plan which brought about our salvation. 

Wishing you Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.